...A Scarlet Rose...

HBtM....

Tue, 15 Mar 2005 11:35:02 GMT

...My new LJ is: _jadeddragonfly...I might keep this one too and sort them out for different things...not sure yet...We'll see (;

...Hrm...

Mon, 14 Mar 2005 23:37:06 GMT

Your Brain is 0.00% Female, 100.00% Male

You've got the brain of a manly man

Feelings, schmeelings... tears aren't for you.

You could break both legs and not get misty eyed.

A great problem solver, nothing ever phases you.

What Gender Is Your Brain?

...By the way, I'm probably changing my journal tonight/tomorrow so look for the change (;

Hrm...HeHe! Borderline!

Thu, 10 Mar 2005 04:12:08 GMT

Disorder	Rating
Paranoid:	Low
Schizoid:	Moderate
Schizotypal:	Moderate
Antisocial:	Low
Borderline:	Very High
Histrionic:	Moderate
Narcissistic:	Moderate
Avoidant:	High
Dependent:	Moderate
Obsessive-Compulsive:	Low
-- Personality Disorder Test - Take It! --

...8 Days...

Tue, 08 Mar 2005 02:05:54 GMT

...Why do I get depressed around my birthday like every year?...

I'm not sleeping well again, gonna go read and pass out early...Goodnight world.

...Headaches Are Soooo Wonderful ::richly laced in sarcasm::...

Sat, 05 Mar 2005 15:06:32 GMT

...Okay, so I have to locate and read the rest of Pi, write an essay, do scholarship papers, write a few letters to people, make CD copies for myself and other people...Anyone want a mix CD while I'm at it? ...Not that you'll all like my music, but I'm offering anyway...That is, IF the computer doesn't give me a hard time like it always does...And I have to go through my closet and sort out my clothes again...I have to get rid of stuff...I REALLY do...Then I can buy some new shirts and...other...things I feel I need... ::Shrugs and sighs softly:: Plus I have to find my mall card, have twenty dollars left on that...I also have to find my movie card...$25 on that...If I do, does anyone wanna see a movie with me?...I also want to buy another copy of the Hitchhiker's Guide series in that bigger book for a friend of mine...So maybe, just maybe I'll wander off to the mall today or tomorrow...I don't know...

I was going to go to Rocky this weekend (tonight, actually), but people can't go...Mike's busy and Christine's not feeling well (I hope she feels better)...I'm gonna call Adam later, and we'll probably all hit it next weekend...I'd love to definitely say, but knowing my luck...I'm not going to say for certain until Saturday...

So I think I'll try to be productive today...dad gave me some money for clothes (my birthday's in 10 days...)...So I'm happy about that. However, I can't bring in more clothes without getting rid of old clothes...so that's what I'mma do...For every five-ten old shirts I get rid of (I have a lot of clothes I never wear) I can get a new shirt, I think I'll look at it like that...

Well, everyone...Have a nice day! I'm gonna go read a chapter more in Knight of a Trillion Stars and then start to work on my room...Yay!...Uhm, yeah...Hope everyone's well! Bye Bye! ::Waves and wanders off::

...Pretty Song...

Wed, 02 Mar 2005 05:05:32 GMT

I write the lines you want me to, with the words.
I dare to use of all the ones that you have taught me, along the years.

You cast a perfect shadow on the paper.
Fade away with sunlight, I fear the way you know me, love can leave a stain...

You steal my only hope and make me stay awake another night.
I wish you bear with me, stay near me.
When the autumn leaves have fallen. Solitude, my pain, the last thing left of me...

If you fall I'll catch, if you love I'll love, and so it goes, my dear, don't be scared,
you'll be safe, this I swear.
If you only love me back.

Seven lonely lies written on Deadwinter's night,
open the only book with the only poem I can read...
In blood I sign my name and seal the midnight with a tear.
Burn the paper, every line for them I cried...

If you fall I'll catch, if you love I'll love, and so it goes, my dear, don't be scared,
you'll be safe, this I swear.
If you only love me back.

I am the Playwrite and you are my Crown, make me cry for your love,
like you've done many times, so I know.
I can't write these storylines without you, lady pain, make me strong,
can't we be together without them forever...

The words I write can only hurt you, sorry for the rain.
Thank you, my only one, you gave me this pain...I leave you gently on the floor,
take one step towards the door.
Where's the letter never written, good night now...

If you fall I'll catch, if you love I'll love, and so it goes, my dear, don't be scared,
you'll be safe, this I swear.
If you only love me back.

If you fall I'll catch, if you love I'll love, and so it goes, my dear, don't be scared,
you'll be safe, this I swear.
If you only love me back.

Wheeeee! ::squeals and giggles::

Mon, 28 Feb 2005 19:47:10 GMT

It's snowing, It's snowing, It's snowing!!!

meep! ...Save me...!...

Tue, 08 Feb 2005 06:39:17 GMT

The Dante's Inferno Test has banished you to the Seventh Level of Hell!
Here is how you matched up against all the levels:

Level	Score
Purgatory (Repenting Believers)	Very Low
Level 1 - Limbo (Virtuous Non-Believers)	Moderate
Level 2 (Lustful)	Moderate
Level 3 (Gluttonous)	Moderate
Level 4 (Prodigal and Avaricious)	Low
Level 5 (Wrathful and Gloomy)	Moderate
Level 6 - The City of Dis (Heretics)	Low
Level 7 (Violent)	Extreme
Level 8- the Malebolge (Fraudulent, Malicious, Panderers)	High
Level 9 - Cocytus (Treacherous)	Low

Take the Dante Inferno Hell Test

...My right hand's nails are redish with sparkles, my left hand's nails are black...What fun! ...

Fri, 04 Feb 2005 11:34:41 GMT

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I cannot fight again myself
no more
self destruction that I predicted
not a long time ago

Petrified

Thoughts so far from me

The power of my justice blows me away
it's just the case to repeat
what I've never said to you before

Celebrate
I'm alive again

You don't expect from me
this chain reaction
you can't imagine from me
this great affection

See the structure of my pride
wasn't easy to build it away from this
I never walked away from you
I never walked alone

A pleasure makes me vibe again tonight
I'm just thinking how fine it is to feel myself so fine again

Celebrate
I'm alive again

It's time to turn the page and start
and then
don't you think that it's time
to convince yourself it's over?

Celebrate
I'm alive again

Hrm...

Wed, 02 Feb 2005 11:36:30 GMT

Midterms are over! Yay!

Neglected...Disconnected!...

Thu, 20 Jan 2005 21:02:03 GMT

::Growls purringly, purrs, scratches, hisses, and giggles insanely, falling back into her chair::

Mmm...I want a champaigne bath...Speaking of champaigne, did you all know that the thing that causes it to bubble is dust on your glass? ...Thusly, the more it bubbles, the dirtier your glass is...Ha!

...Yeah, I'm in a highly odd, happy, blood-thirsty, evil, giddy mood...It's good...But odd...But good...

...Mmm, well, bye!...

Fucking Spiders...Why Are They After Me?!

Wed, 19 Jan 2005 10:36:21 GMT

...That was real pleasant...I wake up to a spider having dropped down from the ceiling, and dangling about a foot away from my head...One of those white-see-throughish ones...

Woke my arse us...I got up with a whimper and had my dad kill it.

I really hate spiders. (Bill Bob and Leroy) Grr! ::Wanders off to freshen her knowledge up a little on As I Lay Dying, make some tea and just relax and get ready for school, muttering 'fucking spiders' despite the fact that for once she almost felt bad about having it killed...Her heart must be really sore or something...Is gone::

...From off the TV...

Tue, 18 Jan 2005 01:07:47 GMT

"We need boys so they can grow up, get married, and turn into shadows."

...So I'll Bleed Forever...

Sat, 08 Jan 2005 22:49:08 GMT

We used to swim the same moonlight waters
Oceans away from the wakeful day

- My fall will be for you -
My fall will be for you
My love will be in you
If you be the one to cut me
I`ll bleed forever

Scent of the sea before the waking of the world
Brings me to thee
Into the blue memory

- My fall will be for you -
My fall will be for you
My love will be in you
If you be the one to cut me
I will bleed forever

Into the blue memory

A siren from the deep came to me
Sang my name my longing
Still I write my songs about that dream of mine
Worth everything I may ever be

The Child will be born again
That siren carried him to me
First of them true loves
Singing on the shoulders of an angel
Without care for love n` loss

Bring me home or leave me be
My love in the dark heart of the night
I have lost the path before me
The one behind will lead me

Take me
Cure me
Kill me
Bring me home
Every way
Every day
Just another loop in the hangman`s noose

Take me, cure me, kill me, bring me home
Every way, every day
I keep on watching us sleep

Relive the old sin of Adam and Eve
Of you and me
Forgive the adoring beast

Redeem me into childhood
Show me myself without the shell
Like the advent of May
I`ll be there when you say
Time to never hold our love

- My fall will be for you -
My fall will be for you
My love will be in you
You were the one to cut me
So I`ll bleed forever

::Wanders off into herself for a little while and reabsorbs herself in the 10 min., 2 sec. long song::

Hmm...

Sun, 12 Dec 2004 13:21:14 GMT

What Makes You.. by SheBangs12
Your name?
Your gender?
What makes you sexy?	Your eyes
What makes you pretty?	Your smile
What makes you loveable?	How sensitive you are
What makes you fun?	Your ability to keep smiling
What makes you irresistable?	Your kiss
What makes you cute?	The way you walk

Quiz created with MemeGen!

Im in School...2nd Period...Library...Weeee!

Tue, 07 Dec 2004 14:33:11 GMT

Okay, so I do think I'm coming down with some sort of cold or my allergies are working up or something and it sucks...The headache that has been slowly working into the left side of my head finally worked up enough to truly be called a headache...Will take some pills for that 4th period, they're in my pocket...I knew I'd need them so I wrapped them in aluminum foil and took them with me this morning...Yay...

...Um, just so you all know...For the month of December I tend to be highly depressed and depressive so if I say something all down and out and melodramatic...Umm...Lie to me, tell me it'll all be okay...I'll feel better, it'll go away in an hour, and just ignore it, overall...Heh...Season Depression should be ignored...

Have a wonderful day everyone! ...I'm scared about next period, I used Slide by the Dresden Dolls as my song for that Human Behaviors project and I have to wonder what Francisco thinks and and and...Heh...Oy!...

Bye All!!!

"Missed me,
Missed me,
Now you've gotta kiss me,
If you kiss me, mister, you must think I'm pretty,
If you think so, mister, you must want to fuck me,
If you fuck me, mister, it must mean you love me,
If you love me, mister, you would never leave me,
It's as simple as can be!"

Yay! ::Yawns and wanders off::
("She's not a model, she's a whore." ~Mrs. Manfre)

In Love With Unleashed Memories

Fri, 03 Dec 2004 02:38:48 GMT

~*Distant Sun*~

We've never been apart
the day has come
I'm feeling that your sun
shines away from me

Tease me
holding my hands you smile again
I couldn't see you away from me
I do realize it now

Living in me
You are living in me

I feel you by my side
your living soul wants to run away with me
inside of me

And now
will something happen to me?
how did I lose my guide?
you left me all alone

But now is too late
I know is natural but now
what can I do without your presence here?
a never ending pain

Living in me

You are living in me

I feel you by my side
your living soul wants to run away with me
inside of me

I feel you by my side
and I'm sure that I can't forget you
you are inside of me

You are inside of me

Yay!! Hallow's Eve!!

Tue, 28 Sep 2004 03:25:16 GMT

My LiveJournal Trick-or-Treat Haul
a_scarlet_rose goes trick-or-treating, dressed up as Jealousy.
_mria gives you 8 green cherry-flavoured gummy bears.
almost55 tricks you! You get a rock.
bitterwonders gives you 14 light blue mint-flavoured hard candies.
cryingshadow tricks you! You get a piece of paper.
endlesslover tricks you! You get a wet rag.
lofistereo gives you 3 red-orange cinnamon-flavoured hard candies.
paistypinkfishy tricks you! You lose 14 pieces of candy!
phantum5 tricks you! You get a scratched CD.
selinshoras gives you 11 dark green vanilla-flavoured gumdrops.
spacepod_jack gives you 13 brown vanilla-flavoured gummies.
a_scarlet_rose ends up with 35 pieces of candy, a rock, a piece of paper, a wet rag, and a scratched CD.
Go trick-or-treating! Username:
Another fun meme brought to you by rfreebern.

...How can one be happy in a world of tears?...

Sat, 11 Sep 2004 15:26:43 GMT

...So I've had on TV the City's 9/11 Memorial on Fox5 since what...8? 8:30 this morning? ...It's really sad...I'm not allowing myself to dwell on it, because it's really sad...But I left it on TV...

...To all those victims of 9/11, and the families and friends living on with the painful losses, I wish both comfort and peace...

...It doesn't really feel like three years, and it finally hit me yesterday that I am a senior...And it feels good. It's scary, because I have to do my college things and all soon...Like nowish...But...It's good...

Other than that, I've printed maps of New Jersey this morning in case I get lost, and may locate my cousin and like head up to high point for the hell of it, or something...I don't know...I feel like driving.

Tomorrow I watch Debbie's puppy Shyann for a few hours...And for now I'm heading off...Well, enjoy your day, everyone!

...Peace...and Comfort.

...Nervous...

Thu, 19 Aug 2004 16:47:29 GMT

*Meow!*

...Hmm...So...Many...Thoughts...And Wants...And Needs...And...Dreams...

Sun, 25 Jul 2004 03:34:00 GMT

...I just don't want to hurt anyone...

I want everyone I truly love, all my dearest friends, to be happy.

...And to hurt...No one...

Is it possible?

...I truly hope so...

...Silence...

Fri, 23 Jul 2004 23:44:22 GMT

Alright, so...I decided in order to reorganize my journals, instead of bothering with fixing up my old ones, I'd just make a new one...So here it is...

...I hope you all like it, and if you don't...I really don't care...Heh...

I'll be deleting my older journals after saving them to a word file and putting them on a disk for myself when I get back to Jersey...

...Bleh, I have to go back to Jersey rather Sunday or Monday (depending on when the car brakes are fixed)...And I'm not really looking all that forward to it...It has been real nice just relaxing and all, up here in Massachusetts...

...And I'm dreading that car ride to Florida...

::Sighs:: Ah well, that's life...Talk to you all soon! (:

(By the way, what do you all think of the title of the page and what I wrote in the information part of my lj profile?)

"Kiss From A Rose"

There used to be a greying tower alone on the sea.
You became the light on the dark side of me.
Love remained a drug that's the high and not the pill.
But did you know,
That when it snows,
My eyes become large and
The light that you shine can be seen.
Baby,
I compare you to a kiss from a rose on the grey.
Ooh,
The more I get of you,
Stranger it feels, yeah.
And now that your rose is in bloom.
A light hits the gloom on the grave.
There is so much a man can tell you,
So much he can say.
You remain,
My power, my pleasure, my pain, baby
To me you're like a growing addiction that I can't deny.
Won't you tell me is that healthy, baby?
But did you know,
That when it snows,
My eyes become large and the light that you shine can be seen.
Baby,
I compare you to a kiss from a rose on the grey.
Ooh, the more I get of you
Stranger it feels, yeah
Now that your rose is in bloom.
A light hits the gloom on the grave,
I've been kissed by a rose on the grave,
I've been kissed by a rose
I've been kissed by a rose on the grave,
...And if I should fall along the way
I've been kissed by a rose
...been kissed by a rose on the grave.
There is so much a man can tell you,
So much he can say.
You remain
My power, my pleasure, my pain.
To me you're like a growing addiction that I can't deny, yeah
Won't you tell me is that healthy, baby.
But did you know,
That when it snows,
My eyes become large and the light that you shine can be seen.
Baby,
I compare you to a kiss from a rose on the grey.
Ooh, the more I get of you
Stranger it feels, yeah
Now that your rose is in bloom,
A light hits the gloom on the grave.
Yes I compare you to a kiss from a rose on the grey
Ooh, the more I get of you
Stranger it feels, yeah
And now that your rose is in bloom
A light hits the gloom on the grave
Now that your rose is in bloom,
A light hits the gloom on the grave.